Trigger Warning: This posts discusses suicide.
A few years ago I completely gave up. I was at a time in my life where death didn’t scare me. I thought about it often. Then one day came and I went for it. It was different than all the other times. This time it almost worked. I downed half a bottle of my prescription medication for depression. After I did that I felt okay. I knew that the pain wouldn’t linger for much longer but instead, I woke up to the paramedics at my house.
I’d never been in the hospital for no more than a few hours. When they told me I’d have to stay overnight (which then became 1 week) I knew I’d really messed up. I cried my eyes out. I was so alone. My mother wasn’t even allowed to see me at first. I’d just hit my rock bottom.
They rolled me up to Regan 2 with a security guard as an escort. I thought to myself, this isn’t me, I don’t need to be here. But then again that’s probably what everyone there thought. During my time there I learned a lot. After spending day after day, minute after minute with quits of few people I’ve learned that everyone has a story. Sometimes we can be so quick to judge without even thinking of giving a chance. But, when you’re in the same situation you start to see things differently. I started to practice gratitude more frequently and over time it’s become something I do daily. I don’t let little unimportant things get to me. I try to stay away from negativity. Sometimes when I start to get myself all worked up over something pesky I just think, it could be worse. Some things are just not worth the energy.
Mental illness is no joke. It exists and people are suffering every day. How you feel is important. I cannot stress that enough. If you or anyone you know is in distress, consider getting help before it’s too late.
I’ll never forget my experience as a patient in the psych ward. I did something incredibly stupid to get there but I was there. I made it through. During my stay I learned that everyone has a story, expressing gratitude is helpful, it could probably be worse and get help before its too late.
Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1-800-273-8255
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Tiani Angela 
Thank you for sharing this! I feel like most people would be hesitant to share, but I find it needs to be talked about more because it’s something that could honestly happen to anyone! A person is not weak for needing help. And society needs to understand that. Much love!
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Thanks for sharing. Sometimes it takes an experience like that to wake you up into prioritizing your mental health. Mental health is just like physical health and we need to treat it as such. Lots of hugs 🤗🤗🤗
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This was a courageous post to write! Thank you for sharing your story.
It’s so true that everyone has a story; no one’s life is perfect, even though it may seem like it on the outside. You can smile but inside there could be so much unexplainable pain.
Take care and hope you have a great start to the Thanksgiving week!
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I’m so glad you decided to share your experience. I’m sure it was very difficult to do but I also know it will help others in a similar position or that may be suffering from mental health problems/suicidal thoughts.
I remember when I was going through the worst of my depression and wanting to die all the time. I just no longer had the will to live but luckily I got better with the help of therapy and friend/family. It’s so important to speak up and get help if you need it because like you said mental health is very real and there is nothing wrong with needing help.
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Thank you so much for reading. I totally agree! More people need to understand that a person is not weak for needing help. Thank you for saying that!
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Yes! Really important advice. Thank you so much for reading and sharing!
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Thank you so much for reading and sharing. It’s true, you can never really tell how someone is doing. That is why we have to be kind. Thanks again and I hope you have a great week as well! 🥰
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Thank you so much for reading and sharing! It can be so hard to get yourself back together but once you start at least you’ll be on the right track. I’m so glad we can both spread awareness through blogging.
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You’re welcome!
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Looks can be deceiving, for sure. Kindness can do wonders for the human soul…need to be more mindful to be kind to those closest to us. Gets so easy to take the familiar for granted. I’m talking about myself here…
Hope you are well and baby will have a great 1st Thanksgiving!
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Thank you! I hope you had a great Thanksgiving as well! ☺️
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Wow, this must have taken a lot of strength to write. Thank you so much for being vunerable enough to open up and move others with your inspiring words. I’m so happy that you were able to recover – you deserve all of the happiness in life. 🙂
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Thank you so much for reading and leaving such a sweet comment. I appreciate it! 🥰
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Thanks for sharing
Glad you were able to get better! ❤
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Thank you! 🥰
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