1st Trimester Horror Story

Pregnancy is supposed to be the best time in your life they say. It’s a beautiful time they say. Okay well, not for me! It has been a nonstop bumpy ride and here’s why.

But she never came…

First, let’s start with how I found out I was pregnant. This is funny because there were so many signs that I didn’t realize before the even BIGGER sign which is the infamous missed period of course but even then I was still in denial.

I remember one day my boyfriend and I got sandwiches with the addition of Doritos because who doesn’t put chips in their sub? I had only eaten half but I was so looking forward to eating the other half after a very long day of both school and work.  I soon found out that my lovely BF ate the rest of my Doritos! Y’all, when I tell you I was bawling as if someone died… I was BAWLING. He was all like chill it’s not that serious I will get you some more and Im all like, no it’s not the same. I even remembered saying ” I just passed Walgreens too and I CAN’T GO BACK!” It was so sad. Something else that caught not only my eye but others was the amount of Chinese takeout I was eating, especially in 1 week. Everyone who knows me knows I rarely ever eat Chinese take out… like ever. That was a yummy time.

It wasn’t till around 5 or 6 weeks pregnant I started to get sick. The first week of throwing was surprising because I had never thrown up so much at once before. But then it kept going on and on and on for not weeks but MONTHS. It was scary and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone. I wasn’t able to eat anything or sometimes even drink, and if I did most of the time I would just throw it all up. Anything and everything would make me gag.

Raw chicken? GAG.

A burger? GAG.

The smell of a once delicious steak? GAG.

Throwing up literally became second nature to me. I would do it anywhere from around 5 – 10 times a day on an empty stomach as well. Now that can’t be safe. I was so dehydrated I would get twitches, lose all balance, etc. I would have to get IV’s just so baby and I can be okay. I wasn’t taking prenatal vitamins because they made me throw up just like everything else.

A page from my gag journal lolol

The amount of weight I lost in 1 month was unnatural. I would’ve loved to lose it back when I was dieting and trying to get fit. Ha! I lost a whopping 35 pounds! I was the same weight I was back in high school when I was active. Pregnant? Bish where? I was fitting into jeans I never thought I could wear again.

Because of how severe my morning all day sickness was (Hyperemesis Gravidarum) my whole life basically stopped. Unfortunately, I stopped showing up for classes and my field placement which was sad because I literally just started. I took some time off work because it was impossible to do anything. That time-off eventually turned into completely quitting which was also unfortunate. Because of this, I was using up all my savings, checking, etc and honestly, it left me broke. What else did I expect though? I know they say money can’t buy you happiness but when you have absolutely nothing after doing so well for yourself, it can really put a damper on things. It triggered some depression and anxiety on top of my alrighty high pregnancy hormones. It was rough. It gave me more of a reason to be negative.

On to more of the minor 1st-trimester horrors; I experienced and still am experiencing a ton of acne as well as BACNE, which I have never had before! (Glowing/clear skin my ass)   I also have to carry around a spit bottle because I salivate so much. Swallowing would just give me another reason to throw up. Lastly, this might be TMI but I literally pee myself a little just by sneezing, coughing, etc! That is always fun!

Hormonal acne ):

Well, there you have it! My 1st-trimester horror story. Please know that this is just what I went through, everyone has a different experience with pregnancy. I have gotten lots of advice and home remedies that have worked for other people but not for me. I will say before I got tired of it, peppermint gum and essential oils were a lifesaver when needed.

My little jelly bean!

As always, thanks so much for reading! Questions, comments, and feedback are always welcome. Make sure to check out my Instagram; @T_scorner 💋

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