It started off small. I stopped using Facetime because I just felt awkward most of the time.
Then I had a hard time talking on the phone using just audio.
(Text much? Tell me about it…)
All of a sudden staying home sounded better than going out. Group settings made me nervous. One on one interactions made me uncomfortable. Talking to almost anyone became unexplainably hard. I was just always nervous.What was happening to me? When did I start having social anxiety?
Have you ever been to the store and responded “you too” to the cashier who has just sadly told you “receipts in the bag”?
If so, have you dwelled on it the whole entire day? Do you beat yourself up about what you shouldve said?
Ive done all of these things and have felt like a fool after.
Today I went outside to move my car in my normal parking spot and just as I got in the car the mail carrier drove up. Into my parking spot, of course. I started to panic and ask myself if I should go back inside. But then that would be too awkward and he would know I’m hiding from him. I then proceeded to wait in my car pretending to be on the phone until he drove so far it was impossible to see him.
Now I’m pretty sure our mail carrier doesnt care about what I do or where I park. It’s just my social anxiety.
This is something surprising for me because Im
usually a people person! I love people but people also intimidate me.
What is Social Anxiety?
Social Anxiety is a lot more common than you think. It’s the 3rd largest mental health problem in the world.
Social anxiety is the fear of social situations that involve interaction with other people. It is also the fear of being negatively judged by other people. Having social anxiety can prevent some people from making friends, joing groups, or engaging in social interactons.
Some triggers can be
- Making eye contact with others
- Being the center of attention
- Talking in a public setting
- Being watched while doing something
Social anxiety can be different for everyone but I’m sure of one thing and it’s not easy. Who wants to live with constant sweaty palms and worry? Not every day is like this for me. There are days I feel so confident no one can intimidate me. Then there are days I feel like living in my own cocoon forever. Ive leaned to just go with my emotions because the sucky thing about anxiety is it doesnt really go away.
Please seek help if you really need it.
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