New Beginnings

Hellllllllo there, everyone! It’s been quite some time since my last real post. I hope everyone has been and still is doing well. What’s new with everyone? I know I have so much to catch up on but one day at a time has been my motto.

Y’all, I couldn’t name this post “I’m back” for the 8th millionth time. Not really, but you get me. I’ve said I was going to post regularly here multiple times as well as on Instagram. That sorta kinda was a fib. I’ll explain later.

So much has happened since my last post in October. I was looking forward to Isaiah’s 2nd birthday, spooky season, and pumpkin everything. 5 months later and Isaiah is basically having conversations with us, and he stillll talks about Halloween. He had so much fun. (Maybe I’ll do a picture post of everything I didn’t get to share over the months.) I recently even made pumpkin pancakes. So some things never get old. Before that post, I wasn’t posting too consistently either. I got so used to living in the moment, I stopped using all social media. I picked up my laptop maybe 2 or 3 times. I enjoyed not having to plan and edit blog posts. I enjoyed not picking up the camera to have to record or to try and find the right pose for a picture. But, after a while, I did start to miss it. I wanted to come back so badly but I wasn’t ready.

I’ve always loved to plan. Whether it’s my day, a trip, or some kind of event. I love to see how things will potentially work out. I need to know what’s going to happen next. This is why I rely so hard on a solid routine. I know not every day can be next to perfect but I strive to get as much done as possible.

For a while, I completely fell out of my routine. I was feeling overwhelmed with real-life stuff and started to lose myself. I was becoming so mentally exhausted. There was no room in my head for anything else but the necessities. Any extra time I had alone, I used to it to catch myself. I rewatched a ton of old shows and even new ones. I ate a lot which resulted in fluctuating weight and an insecure mind here and there. My mind was always in a million places at once. My anxiety and depression felt like it was in full force. There was no way I was “coming back”.

At the beginning of the year, I had no resolutions. I’ve been tired of making these giant promises and then disappointing myself. So, I just let the universe do its thing. I knew at some point I’d snap out of it and thankfully I did. I felt a brand new energy within me, something I haven’t felt in a long while. I was finally ready for anything and in all aspects too.

I went out and bought a brand new planner even though I already had one for this year. I wanted to start fresh with big plans to keep looking ahead. It’s been my best friend, that’s for sure. Since I’ve gotten it I’ve barely put it down. I feel naked without it sometimes. My routine is slowly falling back into place and with that comes new posts!

This feels like a new beginning for me. I’m so grateful to get these chances to try and do better. I learn something new about myself, every time I have any of these experiences.

I truly love to express my feelings through writing as well as making memories through video, etc. One of the best parts about it was getting to interact with YOU all! I appreciate everyone who has stuck around and kept my blog alive. I’m so excited to reconnect. For reassurance, I’ve pre-written a few blog posts so that I have no excuse not to post. This way, I can be ahead of the game and not feel so rushed to create new content. I’m also always open to ideas if anyone has any!

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Anywho, that got pretty deep. I’m not even sure I stayed on track but oh well! Since it’s been a while, I’m a bit rusty with my writing. Please excuse any of my errors, I’m going to have to get back into the swing of things. I’ll get there though. One day at a time.

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