Hellllllllo there, everyone! It’s been quite some time since my last real post. I hope everyone has been and still is doing well. What’s new with everyone? I know I have so much to catch up on but one day at a time has been my motto.
Y’all, I couldn’t name this post “I’m back” for the 8th millionth time. Not really, but you get me. I’ve said I was going to post regularly here multiple times as well as on Instagram. That sorta kinda was a fib. I’ll explain later.
So much has happened since my last post in October. I was looking forward to Isaiah’s 2nd birthday, spooky season, and pumpkin everything. 5 months later and Isaiah is basically having conversations with us, and he stillll talks about Halloween. He had so much fun. (Maybe I’ll do a picture post of everything I didn’t get to share over the months.) I recently even made pumpkin pancakes. So some things never get old. Before that post, I wasn’t posting too consistently either. I got so used to living in the moment, I stopped using all social media. I picked up my laptop maybe 2 or 3 times. I enjoyed not having to plan and edit blog posts. I enjoyed not picking up the camera to have to record or to try and find the right pose for a picture. But, after a while, I did start to miss it. I wanted to come back so badly but I wasn’t ready.
I’ve always loved to plan. Whether it’s my day, a trip, or some kind of event. I love to see how things will potentially work out. I need to know what’s going to happen next. This is why I rely so hard on a solid routine. I know not every day can be next to perfect but I strive to get as much done as possible.
For a while, I completely fell out of my routine. I was feeling overwhelmed with real-life stuff and started to lose myself. I was becoming so mentally exhausted. There was no room in my head for anything else but the necessities. Any extra time I had alone, I used to it to catch myself. I rewatched a ton of old shows and even new ones. I ate a lot which resulted in fluctuating weight and an insecure mind here and there. My mind was always in a million places at once. My anxiety and depression felt like it was in full force. There was no way I was “coming back”.
At the beginning of the year, I had no resolutions. I’ve been tired of making these giant promises and then disappointing myself. So, I just let the universe do its thing. I knew at some point I’d snap out of it and thankfully I did. I felt a brand new energy within me, something I haven’t felt in a long while. I was finally ready for anything and in all aspects too.
I went out and bought a brand new planner even though I already had one for this year. I wanted to start fresh with big plans to keep looking ahead. It’s been my best friend, that’s for sure. Since I’ve gotten it I’ve barely put it down. I feel naked without it sometimes. My routine is slowly falling back into place and with that comes new posts!
This feels like a new beginning for me. I’m so grateful to get these chances to try and do better. I learn something new about myself, every time I have any of these experiences.
I truly love to express my feelings through writing as well as making memories through video, etc. One of the best parts about it was getting to interact with YOU all! I appreciate everyone who has stuck around and kept my blog alive. I’m so excited to reconnect. For reassurance, I’ve pre-written a few blog posts so that I have no excuse not to post. This way, I can be ahead of the game and not feel so rushed to create new content. I’m also always open to ideas if anyone has any!
Anywho, that got pretty deep. I’m not even sure I stayed on track but oh well! Since it’s been a while, I’m a bit rusty with my writing. Please excuse any of my errors, I’m going to have to get back into the swing of things. I’ll get there though. One day at a time.
As always, thanks so much for reading! Questions, comments, and feedback are always welcome. If you enjoyed this post, please comment, like and share! Make sure to check out my Instagram; @tianiangela_ and my latest video on YouTube💋