Happy Thanksgiving everyone! 🦃
Each day that I wake is an extreme blessing for me. Life moves fast and within the snap of a finger, anything can happen. So let’s all be thankful for the persons and things we do have.
Last year today I spent my first half of thanksgiving in St. Josephs Regan 2. I woke up this morning with the whole picture painted in my head.
Lets reeeeeewinnddddd (DJ voice.. lol no? ok..)
I woke up alone, freezing in my hard twin bed. My roommate had already gotten out of bed and went to do her own thing. I was wrapped up in the thinnest blanket, alone just crying. I mean this blanket could’ve passed for a giant poster board.
I wiped my tears, brushed my teeth, and went out to the dining room for breakfast. It was so dull. No one was speaking. I guess everyone was just as sad as I was because they weren’t going to be with their family.
As the day went on lots of people were getting news that they would be leaving today, including my roommate. I couldn’t even be happy for her because I was just so hurt. I couldn’t show I was hurt because then Id never get to go home. I remember asking my favorite nurse if today would be the day and she said: “Sorry, honey, I am not sure.” I called my mother so fast bawling my eyes out not caring who the hell sees me at this point.
Good thing mama has my back. She made the quickest phone call and probably used a loud tone. Whatever she did it worked. While I was in the puzzle room someone called me to the office to ask If I was ready to go home. I had never been so ready to do anything in my life.
Last year I woke up in the psych ward. This year I woke up in my boyfriend’s arms.
Two completely different feelings. My heart is so warm right now and filled with so much gratitude.
As tears roll down while I write this, I just wanted to say again… I am so grateful, thankful, appreciative, etc (the list goes on) for everyone and everything that I have.
I wish you all a happy and safe Thanksgiving wherever you may be and whoever you may be with. I never want anyone to feel the way that I did.
“Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.” – Melody Beattie
With SO much love,
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