Does anyone else feel like weird things always happen in the mall? The mall can be a recipe for disaster sometimes. There’s just so many people all together at once. Anyway, I digress.
It was a Saturday afternoon when I decided I needed to buy a new outfit to go out that night. Because we all know females can’t wear the same things twice.
So I decided to go to the mall. Willowbrook Mall￼ to be exact. Now, if you’re from New Jersey you know this is the mall to come to if you are trying to avoid massive amounts of people. That is why I stay far away from Garden State Plaza.
I know The Willowbrook Mall off the back of my hand. If you ask me to walk around the mall with my eyes closed, I bet I could find every store. This was my go-to mall for all my last minute needs.
As I was walking through the mall everything seemed okay. This wasn’t anything new. I walked around the mall all the time. That was until now…
Everything got dark, everyone got tall, and I felt small. I froze in the middle of the store, Cotton On and I dropped my clothes on the counter. It felt like the walls were closing in on me. I just knew I had to get out of there.
I got out of there so fast. It felt like I was running. Everything got so blurry as my eyes welled up with tears, so I couldn’t tell if anyone was staring at me or not. Even though it sure felt like they were.
As I got closer to the exit it felt like I had completely lost all of my senses. I couldn’t hear anything. Just a piercing ringing sound in my ear. I couldn’t see anything. My throat felt closed shut. I felt like I was a tiny little girl in this gigantic mean world where everything felt like it was falling apart.
This is what my panic attack looks like. Other times they can be a lot more tamed. Did I make it out of there? Yes, of course, I did. Time moves so slow when anxiety kicks in. It is so easy to feel helpless. Think of it as a wave that comes and goes. Try using these grounding techniques!
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