Imagine That…

I feel like no one really knows how I feel. I feel like everyone tries to tell me how to feel. No, it doesn’t work like that. I am allowed to feel however it is that I feel. I feel like I’ve already had so much taken from me but my feelings? Cant take that. I decided to put together this list so you can imagine what its like to be me right now. This is 100 percent how I feel and if you don’t like it keep the negativity your way!

Imagine leaving your childhood home right when high school starts…

Imagine moving somewhere that made you feel unsafe…

Imagine moving somewhere again and feeling unwanted…

Imagine what its like to walk on eggshells in your own “home”…

Imagine you got kicked out your house…

Imagine yourself sleeping on a couch when you know you have a beautiful queen bed…

Imagine having tons of bags filled with clothes because you have no drawers…

Imagine how unorganized my life must be right now…

Imagine running out of all of your savings…

Imagine having to buy meals every day because you already feel like a burden in someones else’s home…

Imagine going from seeing your loved ones every day to about once every week IF THAT…

Imagine what its like to feel like you have absolutely no one in this world…

Imagine what its like to feel like the people you love don’t even love you anymore…

Imagine what its like to be reminded and guilted about what bothers you the most…

Imagine what its like to just feel lost and genuinely sad 24/7…

I can honestly go on and on but I will leave it at this. In no way, shape, or form am I saying I have a horrible life. I am just not at my happiest right now. This is my blog, my life, my emotions. I absolutely hate when people try and tell me I cannot be sad. Yes, I still have a roof over my head. Yes, I still have a car. NO, I am not happy. NO, those things aren’t everything to me. I just want my life back. I’m leaving on vacation with one of my best friends tomorrow and I am not even the least bit excited. I know that when I get there I am going to take that time and focus it on fun and relaxation. Thank you all for reading. Follow my Instagram for daily posts; @T_scorner 💋